drama, chaos, and still the same broken girl

My life has become so chaotic...

building a business, working numerous odd jobs, maintaining my relationship, marriage plans, legal issues, God-- just so much is going on right now I am having a hard time with it all.....

ESPECIALLLLLYYYYYYY with the 1 year anniverary of my miscarriage being 5 days away; it is really bothering me down to my core. I dont know what to do, and there are times where I am almost feeling paralized from the thoughts, and the memories that plauge me. I am forced to relive the whole experience every single time I sleep... I dont want to feel it again, I dont want to see it again, I just want to be at peace... But, sadly, I know that will not happen.


I might be getting married almost a year earlier than I had antisipated. I might be dealing with more lawsuits and more dumb issues that I really dont want to deal with, and I just dont have the time for. But I guess that really only matters to a very few select people in my life...

So as it goes,
I am still....


THE BROKEN GIRL