happiness vs pain

I feel Frustrated full of anger and pain
Life is full of resentment and of full of games
Feel like I'm falling still sitting on a dark cloud
Back to square one where no one is around


Feeling invisible I don't even feel like myself
I hanged myself with a rope from the top bunk of the bed
Despite this feeling I still have a soul
Soulful holidays but I still feel cold


Waiting for the warm embrace from family and friends
Acception and love is all I need at the end
desperately trying to escape this pain
searching for love and happiness again.


The sunrises but I continue to fall
confusion surrounds me like a great wall
lost in a world with the storm and rain
until I vanish into the world with sweet nothings.


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My happiness was shattered a long time ago- and it was brought back to me not too long ago. Still not fully the girl I was- i still cry, still dont smile much... but, I know the feeling of happyness.

His arms around me, in that sweet embrace.
The smile he gives, that comes out of no where.
his soft lips, and gentle voice...

Its the guy of my dreams- he's my happiness..... And i love him so so much
Mr Cy T Seim ♥♥